Questions ...

November 18, 2010 ~

Today, pour down on me a shower of revitalization. I need a bit of strength in the tired feet upon which I stand. I need a tiny push in the right direction. Build up my courage and self-esteem for this road to reach the optimal levels in which my person can use. Open the doors for me to follow into. I need your hand of guidance and reassurance.

My mind is flooded with bits of "Am I shooting too high for myself? ; Will I achieve this? ; Will I be able to be great? ; Although it doesn't feel like it, but is there a possibility that I've followed false dreams again, because it's happened before? ; How am I certain? ; What will break me this time around? ; Will it be too much for me to handle? ; OR could I have been shooting for the moon, all while you were wanting me to shoot for the stars? ; Is this happiness REAL? ; Do I deserve this?"

So many unanswered questions are consuming my mind and wearing me thin. Though I can't help but only see the good things in life again. Maybe that means this is right and true. Hold on to me in this and don't let us go. Even the uncertainty in this path is a sweet aroma for my scarred soul. All that is left: Thank you. I'm in love again. Today: no more tears.

"It may not have been the way I would have chosen, when you lead me through a world that's not my home...I will go through the valley if you want me to." -G.O.