Second Chance

March 30, 2009 ~

I never thought I would be able to breathe again. And now here I am with all my senses alive again. I can not only breathe in the exquisite aroma of all God's creation from the smell of the early morning sunrise to the smell of the trees when the wind blows through them, but I can hear all the detailed songs of various pitches that the birds sing each morning. I can feel the faintest expressions and smiles from the people around me. With this new found life, I received hope that none can fathom. Hope of a life I thought I would never have again. Hope of a love that I imagined would forever fade away. Hope of a purposeful life to live for my Lord. I came to a realization that I am younger than I feel and with that comes more life to live that I had imagined. Granted, I wish and hope for the day that I get to forever reside in eternity's gates of heaven. But it also seems as though my God has washed me clean from the painful life of my past and now given a more beautiful gift of a life that I couldn't imagine existed. There are days when the pain comes back and once again leaves through the cuts left of my heart. Those painful moments are mere pricks compared to the sudden waves of throbbing agony and pain that once took my breath away for months at a time leaving my body scorched with the poison it left behind. Needless to say, I'm thankful for the very breath that I breathe now due to its pure and exhilarating aroma I'm consumed with.

"Sometimes goodbye is a second chance." -S.